Monday, 8 June 2009
hey all.firstly,trust me wen i say i WAS happy all this while wen i woke up uptil jus a few sec ago..a few sec ago,jus plunged into the deep dark realms of tragic sadness..really did..i wonder why..actually more of i noe why..he din tell me abt that..and its been 3days..and now i noe,and yet i'll jus continue to pretend not to noe..i'll jus continue losing in this battle..wat he says is nice..bt wat he does is nice..and other times isnt..its a continuous battle of his nice traits vs not nice traits outweighing each other.. i wonder why and i wonder how.. i really do..i cant help bt be stuck in this rut..really cant help..i look at him as a ___ and i hope he treats me lik tat too..really do..i don wan any other form of love or some other shit..i don wan some love blooming btwn us..really don wan such bullshit to happen..bt still cant stand the way he is at times..break my heart badly and at the same time,paste it back with soo much love..i shud jus neglect.i shud jus forgot.i shud jus drown it all.memories they are. bt at the same time,i cant carry on.i shud keep emphasizing tat its a simple relationship.i don wana complicate it. really hate this kind of crap.anyways,enuf of rambling for one day.i've lost it.time to sober up and get on with life.
When you can live forever, what do you live for?
yogam crapped @2:41 pm
